I watch as people walk by.
Content.

Like a aged wine.
I bring comfort to those in the night

Like a man without time.
I do not wonder what will be in the far.
Nor look back at the when.

Like a unspoken line.
I hold within me the power to do things.
without the motivation to say them.

It is really wierd, i go to school, i usally get home around 7, or 10 depending on wither or not i have work, but i dont sleep like i should anymore. It is really annoying. i know the reason i dont feel as good as i should is because of the way i am treating myself. Take for instance i got out my car at my house tonight, felt super iight headed and puked my guts out. How normal is that? I sit here on the computer mad because i can't call kaycie. so,,,,,i will sit in my bed for a couple hours before i convince myself to finnaly pass out


farewell

Current Mood: sick

that all i can do anymore is piss ppl off?


am i not trying hard enough


thos makes me mad.....like uber mad. I just want people to be happy



AHGGHGHAGAHGAHGAHAGAHGAHGAHGAHAGAHGAHAG (this is me getting pissed off)

Current Mood: infuriated

Current Mood: blank

    Should just be me. you. love, but it can't. i hate even writing something  that hints to the very subject that made me sick last night. I hate it. i want to scream obscenities all over this post.......randomly. But i figure it will solve little to nothing.


other then that, i have been great. Yesterday's plan was to pile me, kaycie, kyle, liz, and r.b. in my car and go the ren fest. Unfortunately mother nature decided that she would make 45 degrees and rainy as hell. As the rain grew worse along the trip, we got  more and more leery . we found ourselves in the woodlands, and decided to go to the mall as a pitstop  (although i believe both kaycie and myself believed this would be the end of out trip.). Kyle (who had bought two tics) was very insitant that we go to ren fest so he would not have to scalp his tickets. After a long trip through a mall that i belived to be cool, but found out it was just that, a mall. We did find out from a trip to the jeweler that i am a cheap a-hole. (guess that happens when your broke). The girls decided it would be more fun to get there nails done so they branched off in magnolia (the last town till you got there). to get there nails done, somehow using there female voodo powers to trick r.b. in going (and helping pay) with them.
    When me and kyle got there, it was worse then the girls thought it would be. so many puddles one was forced to walk through them. which caused for that odd feeling that cold wet feet get where they are numb, but not so numb that they dont hurt. me (being low on cash) bought nothing but 5.00 food and some flowers. Kyle, in the market for swords, bought two wooden weapons. he tried multiple time for the real thing only to be turned down.
    after finally convincing him to go back to the car i discoverd i had left my phone in my car with the keys in the ignition. Yes, i know i am the biggest idiot in the entire world, pls forgive. the girls and during thins time gotten there nails down and had been calling me like crazy for a ride. we hurried back to magnolia to pick them up. they had spent around 70$ for there nails. i don't understand it and i never will. i smile and nod.
    We are in a BIG hurry to get back to the house. mainly because we are tired and wet. it has been a long day and we just want to go home and watch a movie. after stoping at kaycie's house to pick one up that is exactly what we do. only it led to me and kaycie spending more time with each other then actually watching the movie. (i have my priorties, find yours)
    we had a talk..................

    Alas, we find ourselves as of right now. Today was supposed to be my first day of work. They never told me what time i was supposed to come in, so i figured if i called at 10 i would be safe. WHOOPS, i wa already supposed to be in. Now i am supposed to go in this afternoon and have a talk with the manager, He is going to tell me that i should have called yesterday, yea....i know i should have. What i did and should have did are rarely on the same level


so yea......that was my day yesterday. I hardly doubt many will have the patience to read this. I wouldnt. but kudos to you if you did and let me know if i should keep making them like this

Current Mood: aggravated

1,000$




That's how much it is going to cost for  me to get a car. Ahem, a free car. That's right, the car my mother promised me is going to cost me 1,000$, funny ain't it?
Don't get me wrong, it is worth every penny. I couldn't put a price on freedom, just didnt think i would have to pay for it either, thought it was one of those things growing up that just came, you know? free. 

I pick it up on sunday, get my liceance on monday, and apply for a second job tuesday. I am planning on being a busy boy. I am basicly going to kill my summer so that i have a decent Junior year, quite the gamble but it's one i'm willing to take.

 

now i have only a few obligations left in this summer. A dinner with kaycie, and a hangout with my fav friends. Thats about it. Other then that the ony real task i have involve books.

 

It's gonna be a fun ride

Current Mood: complacent

It Just Happens that i am New at this


which might explain why the screen is jumping all over the place and my computer keeps making a sound every third time i press a button. It is times like this when you really feel like a noob. I'm watching som dumb Denzyl washington movie thinking about why the hell the hell i even started this dumb thing. My best guess was because i miss the old blogs that i used to write on myspace, no matter how dumb they were. They were mine. I write poetry, but not the kind people enjoy reading. The kind i enjoy writing. The only person i even plan i letting read these things are kaycie. Only becaus she is reason i went to this dumb website. 
  

 My only hope is that this thing works as good as the myspace blogs at letting me vent myself to no one. I need that every now and then.

Current Mood: busy
Current Music: rock and or roll